Friday, May 6, 2011

Je m'en fous

All I want out of life is to be Brigitte Bardot. Is this really too much to ask for? I can't express the pure irritation I'm feeling through pixelized text but believe me, there is irritation to be felt.

Pardonnez-moi as I drown in a sea of pity. <3

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Snake, snake. Face out an open window.

I hate that I'm so terrible at school, but not even for real reasons. I hate that I don't feel like a productive member of society because I don't have a job and because I'm not motivated to totally excel in my schooling. I just hate feeling like everything has to follow some kind of guideline. Maybe if I knew what it was I wanted to do I would feel extra motivated, but for now I'm just going through everything like a ghost. It all seems really pointless and really high school, and there was definitely a reason I hated high school.

This is probably the cheesiest thing I will ever say in my life, but I don't give a fuck. All I want out of life is to be a good person and to kind of enjoy my time here. And if I'm going to be forced to waste my life away somewhere in order to make money and live a somewhat decent lifestyle, I would really like to already figure out what it is that would be. I'd be nice to just know what I'm good at already. I just want to live in Paris/Tokyo and wear cute clothes and be around people I like and never willingly force myself to interact with people and situations that make me miserable.

Blah. I don't know what any of that means. It's so much fun being a disoriented teenager. Meanwhile, I'm watching Empire Records and feeling a heavy dosage of 90's. And supreme jealousy because I'm not Renee Zellweger. Or Liv Tyler. Or Robin Tunney. Why is this fair?

And this song is really really really good right now.