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I had a feeling for a moment, but it was much more fleeting than I had anticipated so, I don't know what exactly to compose.
I would go to clubs if they were all jazz clubs.
I've spent my first day off in a million playing Pokemon Black. I want to be a trainer when I grow up.
There's a beer in my fridge and I would like to drink it.
Wow, this is the most uninspired block of text in the history of time.
But I can't help it, I've got nothing to say but a need to speak.
Or, how Alex is completely avoiding the writing process.
Research papers are so hum-drum, and so drained of emotion and creativity so I can't bring myself to actually sit down and git 'er done. This one is actually supposed to be on "passionate topics" aka human rights violations but, dear L O R D. I feel it would be a better use of my time to sit here and look at inspiration things. [Inspiration thing of the moment: Yoshitaka Amano. He did the concept art for most of the Final Fantasy games, and his work is so ethereal and wonderful. Ps, I decided recently that I want to learn to draw/paint/art! Just for my own (doodling) benefit.]
The worst part is that I know I will, eventually, soon, have to sit and start typing my life away to parenthetical citations. 11:19PM is soon going to turn into 2AM and I do really want to sleep eventually. Just not now, because The Holiday is on tv.
Also, I want to beat Super Meat Boy. And play other games. And bake cupcakes. And plan birthday's that are coming up in two days. And do arts and crafts. And. Etc.
Okay fine. I guess I'll actually go type something that's beneficial to my future..in a bit.
Tea, anyone?
Everyone else is doing amazing things and I'm just sitting on my bed watching tv. I can't even will myself to get up and do the mundane and necessary things.
I've been singing the same tune for quite some time now, does this ever change?
Such good feelings, and I don't want to spoil it with words!
Hard to say things to people without ruining the *~~^m A g I c^~~*.
I want to decorate a house.
I want to live on the little island that Kiki lives on.
I want my essay to be over and done with.
I want to go to the beach tomorrow.
I don't like temporary, nothing horrifies me more than temporary. Be brave enough to say forever or not at all. Realize that things can grow within themselves and that it isn't always necessary to breathe and begin again. In all aspects of life. Going into anything with an end in sight is the most potent way to ensure that you get nothing from the experience. You don't dive into the water with the intentions of coming out dry. If it's not what you want in the beginning, it's not what you're going to want at any point in time. Stop falling half-heartedly into everything.
I had crazy dreams last night (as usual). Waking up without being able to go back to sleep because the music in my head was too loud is not good when you're tired. Blah.
Hey, world! I start school in a handful of days and by George, I want to go out and look cute and wear makeup before that fateful/dreadful temporary end to my social life. How dare America play the mother role and tell me where I'm not allowed to hang out just based on my age. Pish posh.
Life is so trivial. I wish I was Daenerys and instead of worrying about college and careers I was worrying about taking back the Kingdom that rightfully belonged to my family and about raising those three dragons I just hatched. In a fire. That I came out of completely unscathed. Fuck.
